Just Workin’ on My Fitness

I have hemmed and hawed and debated and changed my mind about sharing this post, but goshdarnit I’m proud of my hard work and I want to share that with my readers.

Over the last few months, I’ve gotten in shape. Lost a few pounds, toned up my muscles, and I honestly think I’m in the best shape of my adult life.

Addy actually gives zero effs about whether I’m shape as long as I stuff her face with cookies.

I haven’t really gotten a great reaction to this when I’ve mentioned it to people, and it makes sense. I’ve always been on the slender side, and literally no one wants to hear the thin girl talk about getting in shape. The kinder folks brush me off with dismissive looks and little laughs and the “bolder” people tell me that I don’t understand the true struggle of getting into shape, as if it’s some club that I don’t deserve membership to.

And who knows, maybe I don’t truly understand the struggle like someone else would. We all have our own struggles and approach them in our own ways. But I’ve made some lifestyle changes and worked hard, and I’ve seen the changes in my body.

I really can’t blame them for not seeing the same changes though. They can’t see that my stomach now has real life abs under the squish instead of being pure squish. They can’t see that my legs have gotten more toned and muscular, and they didn’t see me running 2 miles (which is 1 mile more than I’ve ever managed). They have no idea that my leg is more stable over jumps or that I can post without stirrups for a longer time, and they have no idea that when I walk into work without limping from muscle soreness, that is a victory my new muscles have given me.

I’ll agree with those who have told me that I can’t take credit for some of this- I’m genetically predisposed to be fairly lanky, and I still have my early-20s metabolism. But I’ve been cooking healthy food for every meal instead of ordering take-out, staying super active, and drinking tons of water, so I will take some of the credit. To the people who have told me to “enjoy my metabolism” or that it’s “just good genes,” I’d like to point out that my healthy choices have made a difference in my body. It can’t all be metabolism and genes. I’ve chosen to make healthy choices even when it was easier to take the unhealthy route, and I’m thrilled that it has shown in a tangible way.

Although the genes likely do explain my propensity for ridiculous flailing in any given situation. Probably also explains the pit-stains.

I honestly don’t know what I’m hoping to get from this post- I’m not asking for congratulations or kudos from you all, because Addy has clearly shown her happiness that I’m not as floppy as I once was. I’m not really asking for encouragement either, because I’ve gotten that from manfriend as I’ve kept up with him on a run, and from my trainer as she’s seen me wrangle the Beastly Unicorn around more difficult courses. I’m especially not asking for anyone to diminish what I’ve worked hard for, because I’ve gotten plenty of that in real life as well.

Forgive me if this sounds defensive. It’s not meant to be. I suppose that the real reason I’m sharing this is because I have made such amazing connections with so many of you, and friends celebrate their accomplishments together.

Tomorrow I’ll go back to talking about the ups and downs and successes and setbacks of a working ammy. But today I’m going to take a deep breath and smile at myself a bit and eat a GIGANTIC freakin’ bag of Doritos because GOSHDARNIT I’M SO SICK OF CHICKEN. And I hope you’ll be eating Doritos with me in spirit.

PS- Thank you times a million to Jenn from Stories in the Saddle, who encouraged me to celebrate and write whatever the heck I feel like and forget the haters πŸ™‚

33 thoughts on “Just Workin’ on My Fitness

  1. Susan 06/09/2015 / 3:12 pm

    I know plenty of thin people that are totally out of shape, and I know heavier people who are WAY more fit than I am. Regardless of your body shape, getting healthier/fitter is always an accomplishment! Enjoy your doritos πŸ˜‰


    • hellomylivia 06/10/2015 / 7:31 am

      Thank you! I agree that a lot of people confuse weight with health, and that’s not fair to anyone of any size.


  2. Renee 06/09/2015 / 3:18 pm

    You go, Glen Coco! Especially because you’ve never once talked about getting thinner, only getting stronger, and getting stronger should ALWAYS be congratulated. I’m actually a bit scared of your inner thighs because I’m pretty sure they could crush my head.


    • hellomylivia 06/10/2015 / 7:32 am

      Four for you Glen Coco! I promise not to crush your head ever. That just seems rude.

      Liked by 1 person

  3. Lauren 06/09/2015 / 3:19 pm

    I think those that are not kind to you in regards to this news are jealous. You should be proud πŸ™‚


  4. Karen M 06/09/2015 / 3:24 pm

    Good for you and thank you for posting this! I can relate. Except for the Doritos part–I’m reaching for the doughnuts.


  5. emma 06/09/2015 / 3:48 pm

    turning any type of lifestyle change (whether it’s diet / exercise / quitting something / whatever) into habit is HARD work. someone else’s experiences can’t take diminish your own successes – and any change for the better is worth celebrating imo!


    • hellomylivia 06/10/2015 / 7:35 am

      “someone else’s experiences can’t take diminish your own successes.” I LOVE this. I’m going to remember this πŸ™‚


  6. Karley 06/09/2015 / 5:29 pm

    Hey feeling better about yourself no matter the size is all that matters!!


  7. Annye / AnAmishWarmblood 06/09/2015 / 7:10 pm

    I’M SO PROUD OF YOU!!! Seriously, people who have rude things to say about ANYONE getting into better shape are just ridiculous.


    • hellomylivia 06/10/2015 / 7:38 am

      Thank you thank you πŸ™‚ I know they didn’t mean it maliciously at all, but I much prefer these encouraging responses from my blogging people πŸ™‚


  8. Jenn 06/10/2015 / 6:21 am

    YAY! I love this post πŸ™‚ Congrats on making positive changes! I’m so proud of you.

    And this is YOUR blog, you write whatever the eff you want. Just like Taylor says, haters goin’ hate hate hate hate hate.


    • hellomylivia 06/10/2015 / 7:39 am

      Thank you love πŸ™‚ Now I’m gonna go dance around to Tay Swift in my head all day


  9. Erin 06/10/2015 / 7:24 am

    Be proud of yourself. Choosing to make changes can be hard. Keep up the good work! Also next time someone is rude to you I will be there (in spirit) punching them in the face. Don’t let other peoples negativity or unhelpful comments get you down.


  10. Allison Stitzinger 06/10/2015 / 8:18 am

    Get it girl! I sometimes get the same reaction when I talk about wanting to get more fit, or needing to cut back on the cookies because I’ve put on a couple extra pounds. Since when is wanting my body to be healthier and stronger a bad thing?! You’ve worked hard and you deserve to celebrate that!


    • hellomylivia 06/10/2015 / 8:20 am

      Healthier and stronger is always a good thing!! Thank you for the good vibes πŸ™‚


  11. Tracy - Fly On Over 06/10/2015 / 8:26 am

    Don’t judge a book by its cover. Just… don’t do it! Congratulations on making a change and seeing your hard work pay off. Regardless of what that it, that’s ALWAYS something to be proud of and celebrate.


  12. Courtney 06/10/2015 / 8:38 am

    You should be proud of yourself. It is a challenge to keep a healthy lifestyle, and some people may want to change, but make no effort to, and to make themselves feel better about their lack of effort they like to act like it’s so easy for everyone else except them. I don’t know if that’s coming out right, but from what I’ve seen, people who aren’t accomplishing their goal like to downplay other’s achievements because it makes them feel better about their lack of effort, ex. “It’s all due to your genes!”, and giving no credit to a healthy lifestyle and a recognized effort to be healthy.

    I’m not a beacon of health myself these days, but I know what you mean because I used to make a huge effort to be in shape, hours at the gym, careful diet, and I got comments about how nice it must be for me to be so lucky (or variations of that), when luck had nothing to do with it.

    So be very proud!! Know you’re making yourself a better rider, and a healthier person, and also use it to your advantage and spend some time relaxing at the beach. Also, kudo’s on being able to run two miles!!


    • hellomylivia 06/10/2015 / 9:28 am

      You are a glorious unicorn. Thank you for this πŸ™‚ Whenever anyone mentions “luck” I feel like my smile in response looks super constipated.

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  13. Lynn 06/10/2015 / 9:16 am

    You go girl! I am going through something similar. I’m thin but very weak in my upper body Whenever I discuss the changes I’m going through to improve my riding and fitness, I get some funny looks. “But you already look fit!” Thin doesnt equal fit!


  14. sarahczspots 06/10/2015 / 9:19 am

    I’m jealous, but super excited for you! I know exactly what you mean about the abs under the squish. hahah. When I was 20/21 I was skinny, but so weak. I couldn’t get a full sized western saddle (50-75lbs) on my 14.3 horsedevilponything without TONS of effort. Now I weigh like 50 lbs more (which isn’t good) BUT I easily saddle my 16.2ish horse with a saddle of the same weight. I weight more, but the muscle that came with the weight gain is super useful! πŸ˜‰


    • hellomylivia 06/10/2015 / 9:31 am

      hahaha horsedevilponything I love it!! But I think strong trumps skinny any day of the week πŸ™‚


  15. AlchemyEventing 06/10/2015 / 10:28 am

    As a skinny one as well, with a high metabolism where I can eat just about anything and not suffer too much of an adverse reaction, I whole heartedly agree with this post. People DO scoff at you when you say you’re out of shape. HELLO PEOPLE, skinny DOES NOT equal “in shape.” I had a friend who just naturally held more weight on her body who could swim 100 laps and run circles around me – I don’t think I can even swim one lap haha. And no matter what size you are, you do feel better with more healthy eating choices. So, congrats!

    ALSO, love the license plate you’re buying πŸ˜€


    • hellomylivia 06/10/2015 / 12:19 pm

      Fitness is so much more important than whatever number the scale says! Thanks for the encouragement πŸ™‚

      Liked by 1 person

  16. Britt @ House on a Hill 06/11/2015 / 2:41 pm

    Good on you! Getting fit and healthy is an accomplishment, no matter where you’re starting on the scale. Foster and I finally feeling pretty fit again (yay abs!), and it’s definitely starting to motivate me to take the extra step and add in more workouts in order to become the best rider I can for him.

    Riders are athletes, after all. And our horses are too- fitness is always something to be celebrated and strived after.


    • hellomylivia 06/11/2015 / 2:45 pm

      Thanks!! That’s so definitely true, one of my biggest inspirations for getting in shape was to be a better rider for Addy.


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