Side Effects

It’s no secret that I haven’t been getting as much barn time lately. Mostly because it’s literally all I talk about on this blog #sorrynotsorry. And while this is for an excellent cause and I’m really enjoying all the little details that go into planning this amazing wedding, it’s having a few side effects.

First of all, I’m so out of shape it isn’t even funny. I haven’t been this weak since before I got back in the saddle, way back in 2014. My muscle strength is low, my endurance is even lower, and I get aches and pains way more easily. Sitting wrong in my desk chair is now cause for a sore back. Rolling over wrong while sleeping leads directly to a crick in the neck. I’m trying to build in more time for workouts before work, but ya girl here is exhausted. I’d like to at least throw in some yoga or something to help me out, because this is getting a little ridiculous.

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I mostly ride like this now (also omg look at that long-suffering face on the poor guy hahaha)

Second of all, it’s not all that great for my mental health. I’ve been pretty open about my struggles with SAD in the past (check this post and this one), but luckily I found something a few years back that almost completely eradicates all of my symptoms. It’s an expensive therapy, and very time consuming, but I can’t deny that it has helped more than any other intervention that I’ve tried.

That therapy is named Francis, obviously.

Training with him has given me a needed structure to my days, goals to work towards, forced fresh air and exercise no matter the weather (hello endorphins), regular social time with friends, and that certain X factor that comes from having a close bond with a giant fuzzy wonderful creature. For the relatively mild symptoms that I’ve experienced, the structure and love he provides are exactly what I need to feel my usual energetically positive self year-round.

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“Mahm you look like we both need head scritches I shall provide”

And I don’t have much of that right now.

I didn’t really realize it until chatting with my best friend about how I’ve been in a funk lately, and she commented on my lack of barn time. The woman is a genius, I swear.

Am I miserable? Absolutely not. I’m far too busy with wonderful things to be miserable. And I still get 1-2x a week to go see my friends, move my body, brush my increasingly fluffy pony. Things really are pretty good. And extremely necessary- especially now that we’re in the final stretch, I can’t imagine doing everything ON TOP OF spending several hours at the barn most days. There simply are not enough hours in the day.

This self-enforced break is just reminding me of what I already knew- training with Frankie isn’t just good for my body, but it’s good for my heart, my mind, and my soul.

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8 thoughts on “Side Effects

  1. martidoll123 10/18/2018 / 9:49 am

    love this!! and i do think being with the horses helps our mental state. I am ‘fluffier’ than i have been in a long time since i havent joined a gym down here yet but being outside several times a day taking care of the horses definitely makes me feel better no matter what.

    Your wedding comes once a lifetime (hopefully) HA enjoy the ride up to it and then you can get back and have a lot more Franciserapy. 🙂

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  2. uncanny580 10/18/2018 / 9:53 am

    This is exactly why we took quite a while to plan our wedding. I can’t give up pony time and be a nice person at the same time LOL

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  3. Liz 10/18/2018 / 3:11 pm

    Yep. Without horse time I am less of a human, too.

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  4. eventerinprogress 10/18/2018 / 7:16 pm

    Horse riding is the best form of medication for my anxiety, so I know exactly what you mean!

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  5. Alex 10/19/2018 / 12:37 pm

    Horses: the universal medicine XD

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  6. HunkyHanoverian 10/23/2018 / 8:40 am

    I would probably be chronically depressed without horses, so I totally relate! Glad that wedding planning still allows for a few trips to the barn a week, even if the intensity has decreased. I find that just brushing my Rio relaxes me! So excited for you and the pending nuptials btw!!! ❤

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