I had an “aha” moment recently. I’m not sure why it hit me- my lessons have been going well, but they haven’t been earth-shattering. We are consistently and steadily improving, but there wasn’t some huge breakthrough that changed my whole view on everything.

But for whatever reason, I had a flashbulb moment:

I have to go after this whole horse thing with everything I have right now. I have to see how far I can go.

Since I’ve gotten back in the saddle, I’ve set goals for myself. Big goals! Ones that I would’ve never dreamed of achieving when I was a kid! And we keep meeting them, thanks to my ever-wonderful steed and the guidance of a fantastic trainer.

But if I’m meeting these goals so easily, it means I’m not thinking big enough. Six months ago, doing the 1.0m was daunting. It was a HUGE goal for me. Now we’re schooling 1.15-1.20m courses and it ain’t perfect, but it doesn’t feel like a big deal anymore. It isn’t scary or intimidating.

I have everything in the world going for me right now: my youth and health, a horse that is so game for everything I want to try, a trainer that believes in me and pushes me and is flexible because she knows how much I want this, friends and family who are always there for me, a Manfriend who is amazingly supportive in so many ways, a boss who approves time off for horse shows, no kids, no mortgage, a steady career, and so many other things.

So if I don’t take advantage of this incredible confluence of blessings, I have no one to blame but myself. I am beyond extremely fortunate and I need to grab this opportunity while I can.

Because I really do think that if I push myself and work hard and stay the course, I can achieve some crazy cool stuff. My goal is not to go out there and win every class at every horse show, but to stop setting arbitrary goals and push so I can see what my potential is.

I know that riding is not my career. I know that I’m toeing the line financially. I’ve had several people tell me that I shouldn’t be making major life decisions based on my hobby. I’m choosing not to listen to them.

If I don’t put everything I have into this sport now, when will I ever get that chance again? Maybe there will be another time that things line up and that would be amazing, but do I want to gamble on that?

Nothing has changed really: I will continue to ride 5-6x a week and compete as often as finances allow. But I felt a physical sense of relief when I gave myself permission to put my whole heart into this. I’m so hungry to be a good rider and I’m beyond excited to see where I can go from here.

I simply love sharing the journey with you all. It’s a hell of a ride.


26 thoughts on “Potential

  1. Jess 01/11/2017 / 9:23 am

    Can I tell you how much I love this post? Giving myself permission to put my whole heart into this sport, and my horse-live in the moment-forget 5 years from now-forget i’m not professional material-forget the garbage. Just love what I do, with the horse I have, and go as far as we cna go with the amazing trainer I have! Enjoy the journey!


    • hellomylivia 01/11/2017 / 3:15 pm

      YES!!! I’m so glad this resonated with you, and yesyesyes to everything you just said; forget the garbage


  2. The Exquisite Equine 01/11/2017 / 9:35 am

    Get it, girl!!!!!! So excited to see where the journey takes you!

    And that photo is amazing 😍


    • hellomylivia 01/11/2017 / 3:15 pm

      Thank you love!!!
      Francis loooooves himself some stretchy trot haha ❤


  3. Avery 01/11/2017 / 9:38 am

    It is not just a hobby. It is more than that. It is who we are. At least that is how I feel. You absolutely should go for it! You have everything going for you. Most of all, Frankie and an amazing team. I am excited to hear about all the things!


    • hellomylivia 01/11/2017 / 3:16 pm

      SO SO much more than a hobby. And I totally thought of you as I was typing out the phrase “aha moment” 😉

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      • Avery 01/11/2017 / 3:18 pm

        Ha! Love it!


  4. Heather 01/11/2017 / 11:00 am

    Oh, so much yes to this. No dream is too big. Even if you never get there, setting a lofty goal is more motivation to work hard. Give it all you have and I bet you’ll be surprised by where you end up!


    • hellomylivia 01/11/2017 / 3:17 pm

      This perspective right here. Even if we never get there, why not try?? All of the yes.


  5. carey 01/11/2017 / 12:58 pm

    I feel this way a bit, too. I do have other responsibilities, but I have probably the nicest, most talented, well trained horse I will ever be able to afford and now is the time to see how far we can go. Cosmo aint getting any younger, and one day in the next few year he’s going to be done jumping. I feel like I have to take advantage of his abilities to grow mine while he’s still able.

    Like you, I have a great trainer who can get me there if I am willing. Unlike you, I have a mortgage and dogs and other things that take up a bit more of my time and money, so my goals might not get as big as I would like to dream, but that’s why I follow your blog! It’s hard to make the commitment: “riding is the focus of my life right now” -good for you, do it, girl!


  6. heartofhope10 01/11/2017 / 1:49 pm

    YES! GET IT! Timing is everything and look at all the wonderful things you have going for you!

    Liked by 1 person

  7. Lauren 01/11/2017 / 2:35 pm

    When you want to push it and riding is the most important thing, push it as far as you can. This means different circumstances for different people, but I have no regrets about all the money I spent on Simon and showing. You never know when your life will change, and you won’t want to or won’t be able to chase your dreams.


    • hellomylivia 01/11/2017 / 3:21 pm

      Amen to this. Things always change, for better or for worse. You gotta focus on the “now”


  8. Karen M 01/11/2017 / 3:51 pm

    Just tell the people that say “hobby” that they are wrong and it is a way of life.


  9. Stacie Seidman 01/11/2017 / 4:37 pm

    Gotta do it while you can, absolutely! Down the road you may want to start a family and horses will take a back burner then. So while you’re not tied down that way, you should definitely put your heart and wallet into what you want to to accomplish!
    (Or maybe you don’t, I have no idea. I don’t though! Horse kids over human ones all day every day!)


  10. Abby F 01/11/2017 / 7:29 pm

    I love this post! I’m feeling the same way right now. In fact, I was just talking to a friend the other day and said I feel like I really need to go for it, I’ll never be this young or this brave, ha ha! Seriously though, riding is so mental, especially as you move up the levels. It’s so important to set goals and believe that you can do them!


  11. Liz 01/11/2017 / 9:00 pm

    Yes!! Go get it and rock it.


  12. diaryofahunterprincess 01/15/2017 / 10:50 pm

    Yes chase after your dream! We only have this one life, and why not live it the way we want to?? This “hobby” is a lifestyle, and anyone who doesn’t understand doesn’t have much experience with these awesome animals.


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